Harapanku...

Harapanku...

Thursday, January 28, 2010

38????

assalamualaikummm.......
hmm......38???apa tu?? no ekor ke???
ke no tikam(mainan zmn budak2 dulu,......huhuhu).....
hmm....
sbnarnye...its all about my life...kms student's life!!!!!!!!!!!
to decide whether we will study abroad or not...........

hmm....actually, lpas sem3, i have decided to not 'fly'......ke NZ....
hmmmm....sblum ni ak xckp kt sesape...ade sumthg happen to me....so, i have to take the decision......
hm....tp, i dont have any reason to say, nk gtw kt my parentzz......especially my dad.....dy sgat2 berharap ak dpt fly.....ak nk tapi ak xboleh.........
hmmm
tp lately, i heard that mara will increase the points...from 35 to 38!!!!!1
bapak aaaa.....
ak xpnah pom dpt smpai situ.....even 35 points!!!!!!!!!
downnn....down....down.......
1st sem 32
2nd sem 33
3rd sem 34.....
4th sem?????????????/waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
takot ooo.....
every night ak xlalu tido tw....
lights off 12.15 am..ak xdak lampu......nk pinjam ngan rumate????xpela....tunggu akhirat dulu pom xth bg ke x pnjam lampu 2......maklumla ak ni pemusnah harta bnde...mesti rosak r...lagipun lampu study 2 pom da yg second rosak..huhuhuh.hmmm.. lights off 12.15.....tp ak tido nk kt kul 1.......
agi 45 min????
ak termenung.....merenung masa depan ak.....sempat ke x kawen....hahaha
xla....bkn bnde 2...sempat x ak idup lagi...masalh ak hari tu......then byk r lagi yg ak pk.....
hmmmm sedihhh tw.........
i am strong girl....in front of others...but the reality??????/
hanya Allah yg tahu isi hati ak............

skg ak da ada alasan kenapa ak xnk fly.......
sbb mara!!!
tp, ak nk fly jgk...lagi awal lagi bagus........
hmmm.......
ak nk fly........tp ak takot.......
ntah.....xdek confident dlm diri ini......
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2 comments:

  1. ko lepak la kat bilik lain..xpun pinjam farah nabila ke lampu...kesian ko...lagi 45 minit tu layan aku jak..haha

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  2. haha...layan ko?huhuhu...xmw r...xberani...nanti (bukan nama sebenar) marah ak.....huhuhuhu

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